Dear Lisa I Will Always Remember You


February was probably the most difficult month I have ever had. After wrecking my car on February 9th, I had a hard time getting around … I had forgotten to add rental coverage to my insurance policy when I signed up … Smooth … Next, I lost my new phone only six days after I got it … so, I was out of contact for a day or two … Then, the Broward Sheriffs department lost my accident report … so my insurance company delayed my claim until I tracked down the reporting officer to give me a copy … I’m still waiting for a claim check there … However, nothing could have been more devastating to me than what happened next.

On February 16th, 2009, my girlfriend committed suicide … Until then, I hadn’t ever had someone close to me do something so drastic. When I found out that she had been found dead … I was in disbelief … the realization didn’t actually set in for a couple of days … I think I went into an immediate state of denial. It was about a week later that all at once, the pain and reality that my beautiful, loving and sweet girlfriend was gone … hit me.

The pain of losing her has been so intense that I have nearly been unable to function and work. She was very special to me and we were in the height of our relationship … I don’t want to discuss the events that led up to her death … they are too personal to share at this point … But, I have been completely immersed in a state of shock, sorrow, grief and sadness ever since the day I heard what had happened to her. Honestly, I just want to say that I loved Lisa very much and I will always remember her for the intimate times we shared together. She was the light of my life and I will never forget her …

Dear Lisa, I will always remember you baby …

Love always,


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Edward J. Beckett is a passionate software engineer, web developer, server administrator and polyglot programmer with nearly a decade experience building desktop and web applications ranging from simple personal web sites to enterprise level applications on many technology stacks including Java, Java EE, Spring, Spring MVC, Spring Data, Hibernate, SQL, JPA, JMS, HTML, CSS, JavaScript, ColdFusion, PHP, Node.js and more...
  • Steven Erat

    Ed, I don’t believe we’ve met, but I’m very sorry for your loss. I’ve experienced a lot of tragedy early in my life and I understand how that feels. Hang in there.

  • sorry

    Sorry man, keep your head up.

  • todd sharp

    Hang in there Ed. I’ll keep you in my prayers.